[00:00.00]Headlights (feat. KIDDO & Issam Alnajjar) - Alan Walker&Alok&Issam Alnajjar&Kiddo [00:01.78]Lyrics by??Marshall B. Iii Mathers/Jeff Bhasker/Emile Haynie/Luis Edgardo Resto/Nate Ruess [00:03.57]Composed by??Marshall Mathers/Nate Ruess/E Haynie/Jeff Bhasker/Luis Resto [00:05.36]Nate Ruess?? [00:13.07]Mom I know I let you down [00:18.83]And though you say the days are happy [00:22.02]Why is the power off and I'm f**ked up [00:25.50]And Mom I know he's not around [00:31.83]But don't you place the blame on me [00:35.06]As you pour yourself another drink yeah [00:39.86]I guess we are who we are [00:45.76]Headlights shining in the dark night I drive on [00:52.95]Maybe we took this too far [00:58.12]Eminem?? [00:58.43]I went in headfirst never thinkin' about who what I said hurt [01:02.01]In what verse my mom probably got it the worst [01:04.73]The brunt of it but as stubborn as we are did [01:07.07]I take it too far [01:08.20]"Cleanin' Out My Closet" and all them other songs [01:10.18]But regardless I don't hate you 'cause Ma [01:12.33]You're still beautiful to me 'cause you're my mom [01:15.17]Though far be it from you to be calm [01:16.84]Our house was Vietnam Desert Storm [01:18.87]And both of us put together could form an atomic bomb [01:21.31]Equivalent to chemical warfare [01:23.04]And forever we could drag this on and on [01:24.99]But agree to disagree that gift for me [01:28.04]Up under the Christmas tree don't mean s**t to me [01:29.84]You're kickin' me out [01:30.71]It's fifteen degrees [01:31.55]And it's Christmas Eve "Little prick just leave" [01:33.20]Ma let me grab my f**king coat [01:34.87]Anything to have each other's goats [01:36.50]Why we always at each other's throats [01:38.08]Especially when Dad he f**ked us both [01:40.33]We're in the same f**kin' boat [01:41.94]You'd think that'd make us close [01:42.96]Nope [01:43.55]Further away it drove us but together headlights shine [01:46.27]And a car full of belongings still got a ways to go [01:48.82]Back to grandma's house it's straight up the road [01:50.93]And I was the man of the house the oldest [01:52.64]So my shoulders carried the weight of the load [01:55.50]Then Nate got taken away by the state at eight-years-old [01:57.48]And that's when I realized you were sick [01:59.74]And it wasn't fixable or changeable [02:01.84]And to this day we remain estranged and I hate it though but [02:03.87]Nate Ruess?? [02:04.71]I guess we are who we are [02:10.91]Headlights shining in the dark night I drive on [02:18.02]Maybe we took this too far [02:23.34]Eminem?? [02:24.94]'Cause to this day we remain estranged and I hate it though [02:27.53]'Cause you ain't even get to witness your grandbabies grow [02:30.28] [02:30.92]But I'm sorry Mama for "Cleanin' Out My Closet" [02:33.10]At the time I was angry rightfully [02:34.72]Maybe so [02:35.38]Never meant that far to take it though [02:36.98]'Cause now I know it's not your fault and I'm not makin' jokes [02:40.27] [02:40.82]That song I no longer play at shows [02:42.42]And I cringe every time it's on the radio [02:44.28] [02:44.94]And I think of Nathan being placed in a home [02:46.91]And all the medicine you fed us and [02:48.42]How I just wanted you to taste your own [02:50.14]But now the medication's takin' over [02:52.97]And your mental state's deterioratin' slow [02:55.16]And I'm way too old to cry this s**t is painful though [02:57.41]But Ma I forgive you so does Nathan yo [02:59.93]All you did all you said you did your best to raise us both [03:03.32]Foster care that cross you bear few may be as heavy as yours [03:06.91]But I love you Debbie Mathers [03:08.21]Oh what a tangled web we have 'cause [03:10.17]One thing I never asked was [03:11.78]Where the f**k my deadbeat dad was [03:13.56]F**k it I guess he had trouble keepin' up with every address [03:16.74]But I'da flipped every mattress every rock and desert cactus [03:20.15]Owned a collection of maps [03:21.31]And followed my kids to the edge of the atlas [03:23.29]If someone ever moved 'em from me [03:24.93]That you coulda bet your asses [03:26.38]If I had to come down the chimney dressed as Santa kidnap 'em [03:29.69]And although one has only met their grandma once [03:32.74]You pulled up in our drive one night [03:34.40]As we were leavin' to get some hamburgers [03:36.34]Me her and Nate we introduced you hugged you [03:38.92]And as you left I had this overwhelming sadness [03:41.87]Come over me as we pulled off to go our separate paths and [03:45.42]I saw your headlights as I looked back [03:47.20]And I'm mad I didn't get the chance to [03:49.41]Thank you for being my mom and my dad [03:51.37]So Mom please accept this as a [03:53.27]Tribute I wrote this on the jet I guess I had to [03:55.73]Get this off my chest I hope I get the chance to [03:58.16]Lay it 'fore I'm dead the stewardess said to fasten [04:00.68]My seatbelt I guess we're crashin' [04:03.22]So if I'm not dreamin' I hope you get this message that [04:05.91]I will always love you from afar 'cause you're my mom [04:08.66]Nate Ruess?? [04:09.23]I guess we are who we are [04:15.36]Headlights shining in the dark night I drive on [04:22.26]Maybe we took this too far [04:25.63]Nate Ruess/Eminem?? [04:26.74]I want a new life [04:28.75]Start over [04:30.21]One without a cause [04:32.04]Clean slate [04:32.65]So I'm coming home tonight [04:35.62]Yeah [04:36.10]Well no matter what the cost [04:39.58]And if the plane goes down [04:42.88]Or if the crew can't wake me up [04:46.06]Well just know that I'm alright [04:49.41]I was not afraid to die [04:52.62]Oh even if there's songs to sing [04:56.15]Well my children will carry me [04:59.24]Just know that I'm alright [05:02.40]I was not afraid to die [05:05.51]Because I put my faith in my little girls [05:08.93]So I'll never say goodbye cruel world [05:12.29]Just know that I'm alright [05:15.44]I am not afraid to die [05:19.89]Nate Ruess?? [05:21.45]I guess we are who we are [05:27.70]Headlights shining in the dark night I drive on [05:34.27]Maybe we took this too far [05:39.02]I want a new life